Friday, June 23, 2006
wednesday was crazy and wild.
damn whole load of fun!
met up with tracy 1st.
went to look at blue stars.
lovely! but its a secret place.
kai came shortly after.
bus down to zion road to pick up tracy's flute.
then walked to zouk.
oh man oh man! MAMBO rocks my socks!
:))
then to MoS. tracyFOO got in after some trouble!
but yes! she's finally in! =D
and seriously ismay is trouble!
=X
kai went to return money on her behalf and guess what?
she got punched in the face!
fucking loser.
fucking angry.
went to confront him with tracy and isabel.
that fucken' fren actually pulled me over.
i pushed him away.
he stared. i stared.
he hit my head. my ear bled.
i hit him back.
asshole! @#%$$^%*!
today was one of the saddest days of my life.
i don't know who i'm more disappointed in.
you - the one i care so so so much for?
or you - the one i trust and depend on so much?
i seriously don't know.
you promised never to touch my friend.
she won't get hurt.
all i can see is your playing. you daresay not?
if she ever gets hurt.
i SWEAR you will never be forgiven.
and you.
i know feelings are hard to guard.
i don't blame you.
but your only reason is "she's making me like her"
from what i see.
you're trying equally hard.
i know. all these is my fault.
it's karma. i deserve this pain now cause i'm in the wrong.
but i'd rather it happen this way.
then having to beg for the truth once more.
and it's only my own foolishness to blame for.
i'm sorry i actually resort to it.
but anyway, i hope both of you are truly happy now.
fine that you never loved me.
i'm a waste of time.
i love you still. my bad.
but you will never understand what's going on in me.
you never will. love is not your GAME.
i'm immature, childish and unreasonable.
that's what i'll always be in your eyes.
thank you.
and i'm so tempted to go back to that cycle of booze and fags.
nothing else.
just wasting myself.
i don't want to be a wreck anymore.
i promised myself.
but this time. this blow dealt is greater than ever.
i don't know. but i'll keep myself sane.
i'll stop running.
it was so good to chill with kai and tracy.
doing math papers.
watching soccer.
it took my mind of the nonsense going around me.
and brazil rocks.
ronaldinho is so cute. i want him bad!
=X
sounds so wrong.
slept over at tracy's place.
hilarious night of bolster and blanket fights.
"tracy is not going for band today cause she had a bolster fight the whole night"
-grins
she still went anyway.
i love you both lots lar!
poor lil bro can't get out of the house.
i feel sorry for her.
and i'm not a good entertainer on the phone.
take care alrights?
i don't understand.
but whats wrong with a bung being good friends with a passive?
nevermind.
they just can't make sense out of it.
the red club and DXO tonight.
i hope its good.
i'm gonna get drunk and fly.
liberated.
so not.
but i'll be.
soon.
i swear i hate players.
fickle-minded?
it's you. not me.
- evan
damn whole load of fun!
met up with tracy 1st.
went to look at blue stars.
lovely! but its a secret place.
kai came shortly after.
bus down to zion road to pick up tracy's flute.
then walked to zouk.
oh man oh man! MAMBO rocks my socks!
:))
then to MoS. tracyFOO got in after some trouble!
but yes! she's finally in! =D
and seriously ismay is trouble!
=X
kai went to return money on her behalf and guess what?
she got punched in the face!
fucking loser.
fucking angry.
went to confront him with tracy and isabel.
that fucken' fren actually pulled me over.
i pushed him away.
he stared. i stared.
he hit my head. my ear bled.
i hit him back.
asshole! @#%$$^%*!
today was one of the saddest days of my life.
i don't know who i'm more disappointed in.
you - the one i care so so so much for?
or you - the one i trust and depend on so much?
i seriously don't know.
you promised never to touch my friend.
she won't get hurt.
all i can see is your playing. you daresay not?
if she ever gets hurt.
i SWEAR you will never be forgiven.
and you.
i know feelings are hard to guard.
i don't blame you.
but your only reason is "she's making me like her"
from what i see.
you're trying equally hard.
i know. all these is my fault.
it's karma. i deserve this pain now cause i'm in the wrong.
but i'd rather it happen this way.
then having to beg for the truth once more.
and it's only my own foolishness to blame for.
i'm sorry i actually resort to it.
but anyway, i hope both of you are truly happy now.
fine that you never loved me.
i'm a waste of time.
i love you still. my bad.
but you will never understand what's going on in me.
you never will. love is not your GAME.
i'm immature, childish and unreasonable.
that's what i'll always be in your eyes.
thank you.
and i'm so tempted to go back to that cycle of booze and fags.
nothing else.
just wasting myself.
i don't want to be a wreck anymore.
i promised myself.
but this time. this blow dealt is greater than ever.
i don't know. but i'll keep myself sane.
i'll stop running.
it was so good to chill with kai and tracy.
doing math papers.
watching soccer.
it took my mind of the nonsense going around me.
and brazil rocks.
ronaldinho is so cute. i want him bad!
=X
sounds so wrong.
slept over at tracy's place.
hilarious night of bolster and blanket fights.
"tracy is not going for band today cause she had a bolster fight the whole night"
-grins
she still went anyway.
i love you both lots lar!
poor lil bro can't get out of the house.
i feel sorry for her.
and i'm not a good entertainer on the phone.
take care alrights?
i don't understand.
but whats wrong with a bung being good friends with a passive?
nevermind.
they just can't make sense out of it.
the red club and DXO tonight.
i hope its good.
i'm gonna get drunk and fly.
liberated.
so not.
but i'll be.
soon.
i swear i hate players.
fickle-minded?
it's you. not me.
- evan
at 6/23/2006 08:43:00 AM.
